Patiently Progressing

Serotonin levels begin to increase

Dopamine has reached its maximum capacity

I’m reveling in my mind’s momentary travesty

While I’m floating here I’ll try not to look down

I subconsciously brace because for my  inevitable crash to the ground

Then that phrase cuts through my reverie

I’m not even surprised as I tuck away my mental pleasantry

“I don’t hear from you alot anymore”

One small statement brings my thoughts crashing to the pavement

I’ve become accustomed to the smell of asphalt these days 

And I promise I’ve been trying to change my ways

Please believe me when I say that

An apology flutters out of my mouth and dies in the air

And suddenly I become hyper aware

My mind begins to shut that automatic vault

As I try to convince you that it’s all my fault

And tomorrow is a new day..

But right now at this present moment

I don’t want to drag you through the catacombs of my mind

One day I’ll eventually make it out myself

All I’m asking for is a little more patience and time