Serotonin levels begin to increase
Dopamine has reached its maximum capacity
I’m reveling in my mind’s momentary travesty
While I’m floating here I’ll try not to look down
I subconsciously brace because for my inevitable crash to the ground
Then that phrase cuts through my reverie
I’m not even surprised as I tuck away my mental pleasantry
“I don’t hear from you alot anymore”
One small statement brings my thoughts crashing to the pavement
I’ve become accustomed to the smell of asphalt these days
And I promise I’ve been trying to change my ways
Please believe me when I say that
An apology flutters out of my mouth and dies in the air
And suddenly I become hyper aware
My mind begins to shut that automatic vault
As I try to convince you that it’s all my fault
And tomorrow is a new day..
But right now at this present moment
I don’t want to drag you through the catacombs of my mind
One day I’ll eventually make it out myself
All I’m asking for is a little more patience and time
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I know exactly how you feel. Your words perfectly embody what it feels like to be trapped in your own mind. What it feels like to want to be happy yet knowing that one’s gloomy cloud is following behind. Well written Brandi.